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Biyahe

Kanina habang pabalik ng Cubao, nagdadaldalan kami ng kaibigan ko tungkol sa mga kung anu anong bagay. Tinanong ko kung anong plano niya ngayon sa buhay at sa susunod na taon. Hindi niya nasagot ang tanong ko dahil wala rin siyang sagot sa sarili niya. Clouded pa daw ang utak niya. Nakuntento ako sa pagkibit niya ng balikat. Napag usapan din namin na naiinis siya kay Marian Rivera at gusto ko si Riza, yung model sa PBB. Pero hindi niya kilala yun. Kahit gaano ko i-explain sa kanya, clueless pa din siya, sumuko na ko. Medyo traffic, kaya nauwi kami sa mga tinatawanan naming jokes na natatanggap sa text. Ang babaw pero nakakatawa. Napag usapan din namin na sana parang high school na lang ulit. Wala masyadong problema kung tutuusin. Dati kasi, problema lang namin magkakaibigan kung pano makakabili ng mga celebrity magazines buwan buwan o kaya naman saan kukuha ng pera makapanood lang ng concert ng kung sinong boy band diyan. Ang pinaka mabigat na siguro eh yung kapag malapit na ang exam, paano mo maisisingit ang telebabad ng hindi mapapagalitan? Ang dali lang diba kung iisipin ngayon ang mga sagot sa problema ng mga batang yon? Nasanay kasi sa madali, sa pa easy easy lang. Ngayong mas mabibigat ang problema, ang sarap isipin na sana may madaling paraan pa din para makalusot. Pero sa buhay namin ngayon, alam namin na maraming bagay ang hindi na matutugunan sa pamamagitan ng pera lang o paghahanap ng sagot sa libro. Kami lang ang may sagot sa mga tanong at sa kung anumang baka sakali ang meron kami. Pagkatapos nung topic na yun, pinroblema nalang namin kung magkano kaya aabutin yung plantsang bibilin niya at kinuwento ko din na parang nasira ko ata kahapon yung escalator ng sm dahil sa takong ko. Nauwi nanaman ulit kami sa tawanan.

Walking Back

Yesterday, I went out with my best friend to Bonifacio High Street just to hang out. I let her drag me as she went off to buy new flip flops. I don't have an idea how many she owns by now. Anyway,  the place was actually the same the last time I was there which was like two months ago. But since it's the holiday season, Christmas ornaments were all over the area. lights were strewn here and there. It was a bit different but the feel of the place to me was familiar. A lot of flashbacks rushed into memory and they were very good ones actually, maybe that's why I found it so hard to look around because everywhere was a reminder of a lot of things and I tend to miss stuff. Oh well, that's inevitable, I guess..

And yes, there's actually something I'm looking forward to at the end of this week, I am to watch Vertical Horizon play on Friday night. Wheeeee!

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I’ve written so much about you

On days when I think you are thinking of me too

I have a photo of you in my mind

The one that no matter what I do, I can never forget

And all I have are these thoughts and questions

That I am so afraid to ask because you might say otherwise

Oooohhh

K770i

Isn't she lovely? :o)

An Afternoon Stroll

I was holding my mom's hand while we scour the little hallways of Greenhills tiangge. I felt so tired just by avoiding bumping into people which became a very challenging task as the hours dragged on but each stall fascinated my eyes, I really liked some of the tees, unluckily, I don't have budget for that. It was really a great thing that my mother was with me, she bought me one of those shirts that I like. It's one of my life's litol perks! It was like I was five again and she just handed me a lollipop that I eagerly took. I could just imagine little me grinning from ear to ear. And so we continued walking and my eyes were still searching when my mom suddenly pulled me to her side. I realized that I almost bumped into several stacks of boxes. It would have been really embarrassing. But, thanks to my mom, she was there to haul me out of humiliation. Tsk! kasi kung saan saan nakatingin, ano nga ba hinahanap ko?

Disguises

Lately, life decided to give me lessons the hard way. The feeling was somewhere in between being ran over by a ten- wheeler truck and the feeling that you're being dropped from the tip of a really high cliff and a rocky bottom's waiting to catch you. Then, I realized that yes, I felt that I was dropped but I know I would fall in the right hands. That there are  people who'll catch me.  I am just moved by how my friends take the time to be with me just to be sure that I'll be fine and that I would get the hug and the shoulder to cry on that I need. I feel indispensable, really...

I also know that one day, I'll have that someone who'll be there to rescue me from falling off the high cliff or getting me out of the ten-wheeler truck's way. And when that someone finds me, learning life's hard lessons will be worth it.

Too Much to Ask

Even when i was a child, imagining my future doesn't really need a lot of effort. I don't require my life to be fairytale-like or even extravagant. I just want it very simple-- to live life with someone I love and loves me in return. Now, I realize that maybe I'm asking for a fairytale ending. 

Fair and Square

What’s really painful is to know that the one you love does not love you back the same way and the person who’s been there for you finally gave up just when you realized that they would have picked up the broken pieces for you.

Black and White

When it all happens, it'll leave a tiny dot in your memory. First it just stings and eventually it'll kill you.

Blink

And when everything gets dark

all the familiar sounds would die down

and all i can hear is the deafening silence...